10.25.16
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 10:48 pm by jceasar0118
Update
November 8 turned out to be the saddest day of the history of America after 9/11. DT was elected as the 45th president of United States. To the present, the country is divided due the news dissiminated by the fear mongering dotard of United States. God bless us America, God bless us all. May we all survive these days of history.
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On Tuesday, November 8, 2016, fate of United States is going to be decided. I hope Trump lose so I can finally tune in to CNN without seeing the smug of Corey Lewandowski, hear the screw up history of Katrina Pierson or listen to Kayleigh Mcenany’s ditzines. Barring anymore email surprise from FBI or Wikileaks, Hilary Rodham Clinton is projected to be the 45th President of United States.Heaven knows I tried to give Donald Trump a chance. Trump is supposed to be the new blood that Washington perhaps need to jump start millinneals banal interest on politics. A billionaire, a negotiator and an engaging speaker, he is a Washington, DC outsider and not a traditional politician. But he constantly buries himself with outrageous lies and cockamamie stuff. He can’t release his taxes because he is being audited, he did not say this or that, he is a demagogue who perfectly fit with the alt-right. The “groping incident” was just a nail in the coffin. He said so many hurtful things that I would prefer to vote for Belzeebub than this orange-amoeba.
Any Republican candidate could beat Hilary Clinton. She carries too much baggage. Deleting emails is indefensible violation of FOIA. If not for the DOJ, she could had been indicted. Thank goodness for Donald Drumpf, a God’s gift to the Democrats. Not only United States is slated to have another Democrat as president, the Republican party is severely fractured.
Republicans did it to themselves, rather than thinking what is right for the country, they promoted their self-interest. Let us start with Marco Rubio. Marco Rubio thought he was the second coming of Obama. Young, articulate and charismatic. But the comparison stops there. Marco Rubio has no acumen to lead United States. He can’t construe logical statement without the help of teleprompter. He memorizes his speeches and when questions are asked outside the norms, he just repeat what he memorized. He sounds like a robot when interrogated thus the moniker Robot Rubio. Then there is Jeb Bush. For the life of me where did he get the audacity to run for presidency? Seriously, any amateur historians who were born after 1960s would remember that America went to recession during George Bush Sr tenure and another recession during George Bush Jr. Enough is enough. Not another Bush. Chris Christie is a criminal who can’t lay off his hands on Oreos. He has to be persecuted after the election. What he did to the Mayor and residents of New Jersey was evil and immoral. Then Dr Ben Carson; is there anyone who takes this guy seriously. He has no place in politics. He has no idea about interest rates, foreign policy or anything about the country. Carly Fiorina was a failure in HP; should I say more? Then there is Ted Cruz who like to spews lies while holding the bible on his right hand. I can go on and on what I dislike about Ted Cruz but I may end up being miserable like him. No one wants to work under Ted Cruz–not even members of the GOP. John Kasich is hated by women in Ohio that he may not even carry his own state if he was the Republican presidential nominee.
This election is the most contentious that I ever witnessed in my 20 plus years of living in United States. Hilary Rodham Clinton is not the most exciting candidate. She is a typical politician, a panderer who says anything to get elected. But one thing that I admire with this woman is she is tenacious. She is hard worker, ambitious, calculating, pragmatic and persistent. Despite health issues, Benghazi shenanigans, Bill Clinton’s embarassing infidelities and email brouhaha, she did not stop until the glass ceiling is broken. When she was grilled for 11 hour by Benghazi committee, I thought she was going to crack, she did not, she was a machine. For 11 hours, the Benghazi committee tried their best to bait her and make her say incriminating statement, she did not cower, seriously, she is a bad ass. Benghazi was the longest sitting committee in American history. It is a witch hunt, a travesty at its best to disparage Hilary Clinton. Republicans feared her, she is a juggernaut in politics. Despite four Generals testimony that there was nothing they could had done to prevent the death of Ambassador Stephens, it took years, and tons of tax payers money for the Benghazi committee to end the investigation.
The fruitless investigation yields another reason to prosecute Clinton–the damn private servers. For goodness sake, private servers??? Since the ubiquity of the Internet, politicians like George Bush, Condoleeza Rice or Collin Powell have been using personal emails. Even motherfucking Jason Chaffetz uses gmail account. Investigation of private server or use of personal domain is another horseshit that Republicans made up to waste tax payers money. I honestly don’t give a fuck if the mails servers were in DC, hosted in the Cloud, behind Cisco firewall or Barracuda, determined hackers would find a way to intrude privacy. Thirty three thousand deleted emails is nothing compared to the 22 million emails that RNC lost. I am tired of partisans hypocrisy.
Yesterday I requested for my mail in ballot. I made up my mind. Clinton is not the most desirable candidate but she is the lesser evil among the four candidates. She has the experienced, the acumen and the temperament to lead this country. If she wins, in four years, I will find out if I made the right decision. If I did not and Clinton turns out to be another Bush, I will take solace that I was part of the history that nominated the first woman President of United States. Four years from now, whether Clinton win or lose, I could look back on November 8, 2016 with a clear conscience and say on that election day, “I was with her.”
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05.09.14
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 8:38 pm by jceasar0118
I am very snappy … I get easily annoyed with programmers that takes a while to figure out codes. I get annoyed with people who open their mouth but have no idea what they talk about. I get annoyed with people who tends to announce to the world when they are going on vacation to places that I deem crap.
Yup, I have an attitude problem or should I say I had an attitude problem.
Last night I had another bout of “snappiness.” I got annoyed with an acquaintance because of her “kayabangan.” She has been posting to Facebook, “oh look I am going to Las Vegas”, “I am going to Florida …”, “I have this gadget …” So last night I told myself, I will put a stop your “kayabangan” I am going to take photos of my gadgets and my travels and I am going to post it on Facebook for you to see. Para matapos na ang kayabangan mo, akala mo ikaw lang.
….then this morning I woke up in a deep melancholy. Sino ba talaga ang mayabang? What right do I have to get angry with my colleagues for they cannot comprehend codes that I deem simple. I should be thankful for having an analytical mind.
Do I have the right to get annoyed with this person if she is proud that she will be travelling to Las Vegas or Florida? No, I should be thankful to God for giving me opportunities to visit and travel to places that she can only dream of. Do I have to accentuate that I can afford the latest gadgets so I can satisfy my whim? No, for everything even material things come from God. In short, I realized ako pala ang mayabang.
It is a lesson learned …
Whatever material possesions that I have is not really mine … it is from the grace of God …
What I am now is because of God’s mercy ….
I am nothing without God …
Father God, I seek you with all my heart .. do not let me stray from your commands. Your words I have hidden in my heart that I may not sin against thee …
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06.07.11
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 9:27 am by jceasar0118
Early this year I made a pledge to myself that I will not waste my money gambling. In order to fulfill my pledge, I created my what I called “wish list.” Rather than wasting my money betting on slot machines, I will buy toys that I can put to use. I wish for a new car, latest Samsonite luggages, a new camera bag, a new dslr, a new netbook, laptop, gaming console and prime lense. It turned out that they were not wishes because I procured them all. I procured them to satisfy my stupid whim. In a hindsight, if I could turn back the time, I should had really wish for these.
To say hello without having to say goodbye.
To love without getting afraid of getting hurt.
To experience effervescence without getting angst in return.
To feel the warmth of comfort in a sea of loss.
Yesterday, I made one of the most difficult decisions of my life–I put my cat to sleep. A cat that I have shared my life for more than fourteen years. A cat who had witness my life experience of loneliness and bliss. A cat that after so many years I have learn to treat as a friend, as my own child. Her passing unbelievably hurts; no amount of poignant words comfort me. I have to be strong and perhaps learn to forgive myself. I have to forgive myself. But words are easily muttered than done. I am very sad.
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05.18.10
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 10:55 am by jceasar0118
The imminent breakup of the couple that I adore most is tearing me apart. Nakakalungkot lang, nakaka doubt ang buhay. Why build a life for thirteen years and all of a sudden wake up one day to say I love you no more.
Nakakalungkot. When I am with them, wala akong itinatago. I am so accustomed of disguising myself to others that in the end I become a disguised to myself. Sa kanila, wala akong itinago.
I used to believe in happily ever after, ngayon parang hindi na. Hindi natin hawak ang panahon, ang buhay ang sitwasyon. Actually, wala naman talaga tayong hawak kahit ano. One thing that I learned from this experience, is that I have to live and decide for myself.
All my life I had been looking for myself, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers; What do I know? I was naive. I was asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with, that I am nobody but myself.
Sana pwede ko etong i-share ang natutuhan ko kay Dizon, gusto ko syang tawagan, kaya lang all my adoration for my bro dissipated.
Mami-miss ko siya, however after ng ginawa niya kay Tina at ginagawa pa nya, I think I’d seen the last of my bro…
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03.21.10
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 8:33 pm by jceasar0118
Yesterday my cat for almost fifteen years passed away. My heart is broken into million pieces. I thought I have another day, another week or another summer to spend with her but she has other plan. Yesterday morning, she waited for me to wake up, called my attention and breathe her last breath.
I went to Arboretum today; took several photos and did my best to while away time and forget my longingness. A longingness that only an animal person can understand. But the fact of the matter is my cat is gone. I cannot be angry with God, what he gives he takes. I can only be thankful to Him, for giving Yanni, for letting Yanni share her life to me for more than a decade. I learned a lesson today, and that we are only here on earth temporarily. I will learn to say I love you more specially to those that I love most. I love you Yan, if I have a regret in life, that is I never said enough I love you. I love you anak, I miss you so much, you will be in my heart until the day I die.
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02.20.10
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 1:35 pm by jceasar0118
1. I am a voracious reader. I read almost anything in print: fiction, non-fiction, religious or technical books; heck, I even read pornographic materials.
2. While it takes me weeks to choose which book to buy, it takes me two days and sometimes a day to finish reading a book.
3. It takes me 5 minutes to get dress. However, it takes me an hour to take a shower.
4. I bite my nails when I am in blissful mood. I bite my nails when I am stress. Shoot, no wonder I never had a manicure service in my life.
4. I am very moody.
5. I am addicted to the smell of Vicks vaporub.
6. I think that Bethooven’s Ode to Joy is the most beautiful music written in the entire world, followed by Milkshake by Kelis. The latter statement is a joke of course.
7. I hate the Los Angeles lakers with passion.
8. I fantasized of being a vampire killer …ha…ha..ha…
9. My undies are all from Victoria secret.
10. I have a thing for pajamas, specially Ralph Lauren pajamas. Whenever I go to a shopping outlet, the first thing that I look for is Ralph Lauren pajamas.
11. I want to be a comic writer when I was child. My mom gave a little support because there’s no money in comic writing. Then I thought of becoming a doctor, but I am afraid of blood. Law doesn’t suit me, I am too blatant. Hence, I end up becoming a programmer.
12. I stock on toothpaste. I get anxiety attack if my stock of toothpaste is down to two tubes.
13. Fried chicken is my favorite food when I was child. Now that I am grown, I hate fried chicken.
14. Contrary to what most of my friends believe, Paris is my favorite city in the world not Las Vegas.
15. I cried the first time I saw Vincent Van Gogh’s “Starry Night.” Perhaps the cool dark color spark my sentimentality, regrets, and memories of my childhood.
16. I smirked the first time I saw Leonardo da Vinci’s “Mona Lisa.” In my opinion, Leonardo’s painting of “St John” is more compelling than “La Gioconda (Mona Lisa).”
17. I would rather hang out in Barnes and Noble, Borders, BestBuy, Fry’s or museums than step in to supermarket or shopping mall.
18. If I were to meet a genie, I will not ask for riches but will want answers to satisfy my curiosities. Number one, who the hell was behind JFK assasination? Second, who was Jack the Ripper? Third, who was the mastermind behind Benigno Aquino’s assasination. Fourth, did Dr. Jose Rizal knew that he would be shot in Bagumbayan. Fifth, how in the world did the Egyptians build the Pyramids.
19. I am not a computer nerd, I just find solace writing codes.
20. I am oblivious to the way I dress. But I don’t wear anything that is not named-brand. Isn’t that an oxymoron?
21. I have several pair of shoes, however they all look alike ….ha..ha..ha…
22. I am very opinionated. However, most of the time I just don’t care and pretend to listen.
23. I find using MS Word or Excel extremely hard. I am having hard time figuring out how to insert page number, add colors or bold a text. However, I find it extremely easy to learn a new programming language.
24. I know how to build computers. I even know how to change car transmission oil and spark plugs. What is strange is I don’t know how to cook.
25. I have three tenets in life: First, I don’t let anyone see me bleed second, I always have an escape plan and third I never let anyone insult me, and if I get insulted, I never retaliate right away; I muster all my strengths and hit back hard even I don’t have a reason to hit back.
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02.01.10
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 11:43 am by jceasar0118
It took me more than a week to install Oracle Application Server 10.1.2.0.2 on our new server. One reason why it took me that long is the whole setup is a mistake from the get go and second I could barely concentrate at work because I am dreaming of Antonio Gaudi’s works in Barcelona. Yes people, I am going to Barcelona in June.
The Linux server that we have is a 64 bit machine, I was trying to install a 32 bit applications– go figure how it’s going to be an easy feat. I posted questions to Oracle forums and to whatever technical forums that I can think of, some posters were helpful, however most of them answered in a very condescending tone. I can’t blame them, after all why in the world did we procure a 64 bit server, when we are going to install 32 bit apps. I have too much pride to admit to my boss the duress that I am in. Did I not bastion the beauty of having a 64 bit machine and the amount of memory it support. But the darn OAS would not install, it’s missing libraries left and right. I thought of Frankestein, did he not walk on earth , according to Mary Shelly, with odd body parts. With the thought of Frankestein in mind, I proceeded with a plan, if I can’t install OAS using the oinstaller, I will build my application server with odd body parts.
Error number one.
Error in invoking target ‘relink’ of makefile ‘/home/oracle/OraHome_1/precomp/lib/ins_precomp.mk’.
What’s wrong with this server, which part of I am not in the mood to work, it doesn’t understand. I looked at the error, I checked the make.log and the ‘relink all’ would not work because it’s missing ‘libc_nonshared.a’. Great, I checked /usr/lib/ and the file is not really there, for what reason that I don’t know. As far as I am concern I followed Red Hat Linux documentation to the “t.” I took a deep breath and did an sftp to get this file from another server. Problem solved.
Error number two.
Error while loading shared libraries: libclntsh.so.10.1: cannot open shared object file: No such file or directory
Seriously, C compiler problem again. I remember my college days when I banter with my C language professor every opportunity that I have. The boy thinks that he is the only one who can write C program. By the time I completed the course, I already know all the Miracle C tricks in the world.
gcc296
#!/bin/sh
exec /usr/bin/gcc32 -m32 -static-libgcc -B /usr/lib/gcc-lib/i386-redhat-linux/2.96/ $*
g++296
#!/bin/sh
exec /usr/bin/g++32 -m32 -static-libgcc -B /usr/lib/gcc-lib/i386-redhat-linux/2.96/ $*
execute as root following commands:
mv gcc gcc.save
mv g++ g++.save
ln -s /usr/bin/gcc296 /usr/bin/gcc
ln -s /usr/bin/g++296 /usr/bin/g++
Problem Solved.
Error number three
java.lang.UnsatisfiedLinkError: blah … blah.. blah…
/usr/X11R6/lib/libXm.so.2: undefined symbol: _Xsetlocale
It just never ends…must I must I really have to cheat the system to get the installation complete.
To resolve this problem I have perform the following steps.
su - root
cd /usr/X11R6/lib
mv -f libXm.so.2 libXm.so.2.backup
ln -s libXm.so.3 libXm.so.2
Problem solved.
Happy days again; I did a little of “Frankestein” here and there and my server is up with “odd body parts.” I can go back to what I do the best and that is to daydream. If my boss were to asked, how did I get the server up, seriously, must she really need to know 
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11.12.09
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 6:04 pm by jceasar0118
Lord, I have lost my way
But now I find myself
I’m here to stay with you
To serve you more my Lord
Lord, you’re the one I need
If my life is all that I can give
Take it Lord, I need to get back
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10.09.09
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 12:57 pm by jceasar0118
Actually Friday ngayon, gusto ko lang tawaging Sabado ang title ng blog ko.
Ang bilis ng araw parang kailan lang bored na bored ako sa Philadelphia, parang kailan lang lahat perpekto, ngayon lahat sa buhay ko magulo, walang sigurado. I can’t wait for next year, tingin ko sa next year bagong buhay, lahat ng mali na ginawa ko itatama ko. Hindi katulad ngayon, lahat ng sabihin ko nagsisimula sa “sana”. Sana buhay pa si Dete, sana magkasama pa si Nanay at si Daddy, sana kasama ko si Mobley, sana hindi na lang … sana hindi mali.
Gusto kong bumalik sa France. Tumakbo sa realidad sa present na kinalalagyan ko. Gusto kong maglakad sa gilid ng Seine River, sumakay sa Bato Bus, magkape sa Place de Saint Michel. Gusto kong bumalik sa mga Museo, mamangha sa mga paintings nila Renoir at Van Gogh. Bakit ba ang painting ni Van Gogh kapag tinitingnan ko nakakaramdam ako ng lungkot. Weird, dapat joy. Gusto kong maglakad sa Champs de Mars, I don’t get the pressured to say “Hi, Hello, How are you” sa mga nakakasalubong ko. Ang America eh punong-puno ng superficial na tao, na ang pagsasabi ng “How are you” ay akin or similar sa paghinga pero in reality wala naman silang pakialam kung mamatay ka o maghirap ka.
Di ako cynical, pragmatic lang. Sabi nga ng boss ko ang attitude ko raw eh “as a matter of fact.” Di ko naman masabi sa kanya, anong gusto mo tumulad ako sa’yo sa attitude mo na scandalous at plastic. Hindi maintindihan ng boss ko how to asunder friendship from being part of the management. Siguro nga marami pa siyang dapat matutunan.
Ang hilig ko sa photography. Ang photography walang hilig sa akin. Ang dami ko ng nabiling gadget, marami na akong lens. Pero ngayon ko na-realized ang photography, one aspect lang ang gadget, mas importante ang composition. Kaya eto back to basic ako, bago ko intindihin ang ISO, ang focal length, white balance, intindihin ko muna bago ko nagustuhan ang photography–and that is to capture a story. Composition muna ineng bago exposure.
Enjoy ang Facebook, may mga kaibigan akong nahanap, may mga kaibigan pa rin akong hinahanap. Mayruon akong kaibigang nahanap pero ayaw na niyang bumalik o ayaw na niyang ibalik ang friendship. Inamin ko sa kanya na nami-miss ko siya. Ganuon yata talaga, karma ang tawag duon, kasi may kaibigan akong pilit kong tinatakbuhan at hindi ko masabi sa kanya ang reason. Isa kasi akong duwag. Tumanda akong duwag.
Mahaba na pala eto. Supposed to be nagta-trabaho ako. Pero ang utak ko ang siyang amo, kapag ayaw gumana, ayaw talaga. Di ko naman sino-short change ang employer ko. kasi kung di man ako magtrabaho ngayon, I am sure this weekend, maglo-log in na naman ako sa gotomypc para tapusin ang trabaho kong hindi nagawa.
Bukas Sabado, araw ng paglilinis, paggro-grocery at kung ano pang errands. Dapat weekends pahinga, pero ang weekends extension din ng trabaho. Same old, same old. Kala ko pa naman maiiiba kasi akala ko dadalaw sila bro. napurnada tuloy ang melting pot ko.
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10.17.08
Posted in Photoblogs and stuff at 3:00 pm by jceasar0118
I wish that my cats could read and if they could, I wish they could read these …
Dear Boo ,
There are two tenets in life that I want to you to remember.
1. First, YOU ARE A CAT !
2. Second, YOU ARE MY CAT !
Boo, YOU ARE A CAT, therefore kneading as if you are making dough for biscuit is not an appropriate behavior. Boo, why do you love to knead on my stomach? I understand that I need to lose weight but must you really emphasize that I am fat? You are not right Boo, you are not right.
Boo, YOU ARE MY CAT, therefore I can make the decision to keep you inside the house at all time. Allowing you to go outside the house from time to time is your privilege NOT your right. You can cry your hearts out or plead to your Tita Wewe but I am the only one who can make the decision to let you out of the house or not. You are my cat. Unless you pay the $95 adoption fee that you owe me, you don’t have a say in life. Just be content that you are a house cat Boo; it is a tough life out there.
Love,
Mom
Dear Bingo,
Our neighbor’s cat Tommy and the feral cat that I named Kitten 2 doesn’t have the intention to live in our house. Therefore, if you see them passing by in our front yard, don’t hiss, scratch the window or pretend that you are about to start a fight. Bingo, what’s wrong with you? you are such a snob. I hate to say this but those cats will beat the crap out of you.
Bingo, contrary to a popular belief, it is not healthy for a cat to eat tuna everyday. You have to eat variety of canned foods.
Lastly, Bingo can you please be a good cat. Your Tita Wewe’s purse cost $500 bucks. It is a Burberry for goodness sake. It was not meant to be your scratch post. BTW, I have not told your Tita Wewe that you have made a tiny hole on her Coach bag. Your secret is safe with me as long as you promise to be a good cat.
Love and kisses,
Mom
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